Elda Marker (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
matchbreaker) wrote2017-11-04 09:33 pm
matchbreaker) wrote2017-11-04 09:33 pm
R6: Elda's Letter
My dear girl,
If you're reading this, you've killed me. It's not fitting for me to ask forgiveness, but you've either given it or not given it before I've gone down into the pit. This letter doesn't say anything I won't have already said. But if in the heat of the moment I ever made it sound like I chose to belittle you and my love for you then please disregard that as best you can. I've been given an impossible choice this current week, to choose between you and the salvation of that family which I'm connected to by blood. By taking what actions I've taken, the choice is not you over them, but rather a failure on my part.
It means that I made the worst choice. Assuming things go well, Rin might well be dead, and my choice for her was a calculated towards what would make sure I stood a chance at getting away with it. As I once told Luca, if I'm going to make the choice, it must be all or none. This is in stark contradiction to this letter, I know. And if that is something you cannot handle, then please find solace in your girl or with any of the others, and please win where I proved to be incapable.
Enclosed is a letter you are to deliver to my Henry. At the least, my actions will ensure you have a home to return to in Shihaba, with or without this old woman. I've lived more than long enough, and try to remember me well.
[ Included here is the address and directions for both her manor and to Kenta Usui's apartment, who can direct her there if the barrier stops her. ]
Love,
Elda Marker
If you're reading this, you've killed me. It's not fitting for me to ask forgiveness, but you've either given it or not given it before I've gone down into the pit. This letter doesn't say anything I won't have already said. But if in the heat of the moment I ever made it sound like I chose to belittle you and my love for you then please disregard that as best you can. I've been given an impossible choice this current week, to choose between you and the salvation of that family which I'm connected to by blood. By taking what actions I've taken, the choice is not you over them, but rather a failure on my part.
It means that I made the worst choice. Assuming things go well, Rin might well be dead, and my choice for her was a calculated towards what would make sure I stood a chance at getting away with it. As I once told Luca, if I'm going to make the choice, it must be all or none. This is in stark contradiction to this letter, I know. And if that is something you cannot handle, then please find solace in your girl or with any of the others, and please win where I proved to be incapable.
Enclosed is a letter you are to deliver to my Henry. At the least, my actions will ensure you have a home to return to in Shihaba, with or without this old woman. I've lived more than long enough, and try to remember me well.
[ Included here is the address and directions for both her manor and to Kenta Usui's apartment, who can direct her there if the barrier stops her. ]
Love,
Elda Marker
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The girl who is giving you this letter has been my salvation for the last several months. I realize how absurd this must seem, but I am dead. Don't mourn me too much, and feel free to lie about it to the grandchildren, there's no need to make them too sad. I'll be joining James, and I'm content with that. If you're crying, then try to stop it! Chin up, because I do have a last request.
Sayaka Maizono before you ought to be seen as one of the family. I want you to fund her living expenses and make sure she gets on her feet and can make a stable business in Shihaba. She's more than trustworthy for our secret, and I want you to look after her. Don't allow Calera to talk you our of it, and don't doubt that I'm requesting this.
I love you, I love all of my grandchildren. I wished to see you again, but it seems that didn't come to pass. Love her both in my stead and instead of welcoming me back into the manor.
Love,
Your mother, Elda Marker